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| hullooooooooooooo i am back from Sentosa. it was raining. what an awesome trip. anyway i really need to complain about the horrible food and service in SG restaurants now!!!!!! so just now we were chilling at the Siloso beach cafe with my doggies, and we have been sitting there for more than 2 hours when the IDIOTIC waitress decided that dogs were "strictly not allowed" in her cafe. seriously wtffffffff. after fricking 2 hours and then you fricking decide that you "strictly" do not allow dogs?!?!?! so i threw the money for the drinks into her stinking face and we went to search for another lunch place. argh annoying. and there's this new Chinese place at Ion called Taste Paradise. i seriously HATE IT when waitresses try to recommend some dish to you and that dish is ALWAYS the most expensive on the menu. like the waitress just kept "highly recommending" some soup that she called sea whelk soup. so i was like okay, i like sea whelk. and BOOM, when the soup came, it was like 80% shark's fin. ugh i have sworn off shark's fin after the scuba diving trip years ago! so i was pissed.
okay sorry for bitching so much but i think its PMS. oh! on a happier note, i bought the most comfortable pair of heels EVER yesterday. i have never worn such comfy heels before! so happy :) and i am officially employed now. hah! what an awesome first step to adulthood.
i wanna go on a beach holiday!!!! SG is so gloomy and wet nowadays, it's depressing. so luckily my dad has decided not to go to Shanghai the week after next, so that leaves time for my beach paradise! i think i'll get so angry every single day that i'm in China. ugh. oh i need to buy super furry boots for my Japan trip. and i think i saw Uggs at Steve Madden. hahaha i want a pair of Uggs!!!! (no matter how fugly they are)
and some good news... yours truly is going to London next Jan!!!! hehehehehe :) | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment   |
| okay, so just a few days ago i was whining about having no dress for prom. so after days of intense shopping, i ended up with not one, not two but THREE dresses. i was feeling so high and happy after buying so many things but after i sat down to chill for a little while, i realised how horrible this situation is! that means i have a major dilemma choosing which dress to wear now. and ugh, i felt so disgusted with myself for splurging so much on everything. trust me, you wouldn't wanna know how much... BUT! after thinking it through and listening to words of wisdom from my beloved mommy, i decided, why bother sticking to one dress when you can wear one, two, three, four or many more?! hahaha so i'm gonna wear all three! okay maybe not three, cuz i'm not feeling too hot about the Laundry one anymore. so it's all cool now. :) hahaha can't believe i just wrote so seriously about such a frivolous situation.
anyway! watched New Moon yesterday!!!!!!!!!!! omg i have found my man in Jacob Black. i seriously don't understand all the hype about Edward Cullen. Team Jacob all the way!!!!!! okay gonna finish reading Eclipse and Breaking Dawn TODAY. :) but not without going car-shopping with my dad l8r!!! :D
hope you guys are having a great time as well. xoxo | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 11:56 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/nolegs/happy.gif) happy |
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| YESSSSSAAAAAA FREEDOM IS NOT OVERRATED.
Christmas Carol is such a lousy movie by the way. it was so scary that i cannot sleep now. so i'm watching The City to pass time... lovvit!
anyway i went to sign up for driving at CDC today!!!!!!! omg hahaha the person asked me if i was in the hurry to get my license and i was like YES TOTALLY. so i signed up for the speedy course so i can have my first practical lesson on 14th Jan! (actually i can have it earlier but i'll only be back in Jan... sigh) omg vroom vroom can't wait to get my car! :D haha i kinda like scared the receptionist off by booking 4 lessons on 4 consecutive days in a week haha i think Ubi will be my second home. the BTT looks relatively easy but Advanced Theory looks kinda... tough.
Super Shopping Spree tmrw!!! :)
I On Orchard EVERYDAY from now. ok will be a conscientious student and study for my BTT now. did i mention that i'm super excited about getting my car?!?!?!?! :D | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| omg yesterday was so effed up i shan't think about it anymore. so after the stupid paper, i went to this super cool blood type restaurant and it was so boom like everything you ate was according to your blood type. haha but i still had damn unhealthy beef steak though. anyway this blood type thingy doesn't really make sense cuz i'm supposed to have super strong immune system but wth it's the total opposite.
actually i feel kinda bad about consuming so much traditional chinese herbs and stuff during this exam period cuz my parents insist that i must eat them and they go out to buy SO MUCH ginseng, worms and other insects that they can find. and they're so bloody expensive so the most ironic part is that they haven't been doing very much at all, it's quite sad.
yay gonna sign up for driving next monday. and i emailed Samantha Thavasa but no reply :( sigh why do we have to work so hard to fulfil our dreams? sigh hello CSM in London or New York....
bitchy bitchy blogpost after exams cuz someone insists that i am a bitch. :) | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| i aboslutely refuse to discuss the ongoing A level examinations because they have been nothing short of frightening for me. absolutely ghastly and unimaginable. i cannot conceive the idea of ANYBODY wanting to go through this. who even thought of such an idea?! i imagine him to be a fat, lumpy, saggy, evil (definitely) and disgusting man. who looks like a nipple. okay no idea why but yeah he would look like a nipple.
anyway i have decided that exams are full of shit and i have no use for a piece of paper that would constantly remind me of the crappy grades that i am going to get. so i have rationally decided to forsake my ex-dream and move on to a more realistic one instead. but i will still work hard for the remaining papers because i need to regain my confidence and remind myself that i am not that stupid.
but i cannot wait for 3rd Dec. and until then, anybody who mentions "bell curve" to me ever again will die a horrible death.
PS: i am soooooooo pissed cuz i cannot stalk Obama around this weekend when he is here cuz of stupid Econs. he is my ultimate idol!!!!!!! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| more peekchurez from my super sweet eighteenth! :)
 hey LOVE! you know i'll be always LOVING you. :)  my six year bosom buddy! that's like one-third of my life thus far. stay skinny and sexy babe. lubchoo <3  hahaha FAITH stay sober helloooooo. and i wish you all the best with your new gay bff. plz help me look for one too!!!  Baby bea! i'm sorry guys, Hwa Chong has been so wrong all along. as May says, you know a Prom Queen when you see one. and with such a mesmerising smile as above, it has gotta be BEATTIE FOR PROM QUEEN. i love you truckloads Beattie! :)  hehe Penny and i are getting married. you are really sooo kewt Moo.  yeah i HAD TO feign shock and surprise. haha thanks for the gift anyway!! Michael moonwalkin' headed to White Rabbit after but no peekchurez!  thanks for everything ya'll!!! omg you know when i reached home, i wanted to read all the cards and stuff. but i couldn't find them anywhere in the paper bag!!! i was like freaking OUT. i thought i left them at House!!! haha so i frantically msged May and Beattie to express my devastation and then Baby Bea saved the day!!! haha it was actually on my table all along. :/  Kobe so kewt!!!  Lukkie tries to battle it out with Kobe but to no avail, always. hahahaha  celebrated my dad's birthday (just one day after mine) with a surprise visit from the Wan family :) haha look at Lukkie posing for the picture!  aww he was really sad cuz we kept going out these few days. soooo adorable. he looks like a little fishball hahaha. headed to Jaan par Andre at Swissotel for my dad's birthday dinner. magnificent view, fine food and great company :)  love this lemon thingy! the texture is amazing, i don't know how to describe it.. Happy 21st Birthday Daddy!!!! :D
drink, drank, drunk. my mom drove us back instead haha. okay i've really gotta start studying TODAY! gonna bring my babies for a little run later. today's World Animal Day! please be kind to all animals, always! :)
xoxoxo | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| BOOMS. my birthday has been nothing short of amazing. and i really have to thank all the wonderful people in my life for such a freaking fabulous time!!! :) you guys know who you are and i really love you all sooooooooooo much! i meant every word that i said during my toast. and i am so grateful for such an amazing family and my gorgeous friends. :)
had my first (moon)cake at 10.25am when i was born. hahaha my mom made me do it. then proceeded to lunch at Foster's with my koolest klassmates. thanks for everything guys! i love the dress! :)
yeap Luke's present totally made Martin cry like crazy... what a MAN.
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thanks for arranging such a nice meal! :) i promise to upload all the rest of the photos when somebody teaches me how to use Facebook!!!
and then it was shopping with my mommy dearest and hair appointment.
FLOWER POWER PARTY!!!!! Venue: House @ Dempsey
hahaha well as usual, i was late. but this time i was late for my own party!!! not cool at all. haha whatevs my bosom buddies always understand that a girl needs time to get her hair and makeup done. LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!! :) thanks for making everything possible!
love this picture!!! my mommy who went through so much pain and suffering before giving birth to me 18 years ago! my mom is really my best friend in the entire world. i can't thank her enough for all the fun and laughter she brings. i love you so much, my airheaded mommy! <3
 my super sweet daddy who got me the biggest roses he could find! haha and he's THE MAN for sponsoring the 1k party last night! love you soooo much daddy. i will make you proud with my fashion empire! hehehe :)
thank you for the totally ME book sexy Kong!!!! my love for you goes on forever! i am really, really touched by the effort you put into that scrapbook. love you so much babe! :)
 hey biatch. you HEALED MY WORLD and that's why i lubchoo like crazy love. thank you (x10000) for all the stupid jokes and funny dance moves. you are truly one of a kind. (P.S.: my dad says you are a joker hahaha) keep moonwalkin'!
hahaha i am finally taller than you my slack buddy! :D
but not taller than our very own Prom Queen yet. :( hahaha check out the colour difference plz. haha sorry PQ but i HAD to say that :P
Sabrina!!! thanks for coming dear. i really miss you so much!!! :)
WOAH. this picture tells NINE YEARS worth of stories. i love you two so super much! i mean, you two could even befriend me when i looked like a fugly ahlian in my early years. that was totally a test of friendship man. MWA <3
Ping Hui my sexy little brother. stay hot brudder, and keep collecting those girls, haha NOT
my crazy family. i really don't know what i would do without them. yesterday, i truly felt like the luckiest girl in the world. i mean, with such a wonderful family and amazing friends, i don't know what else a girl could ask for! i can never thank my family enough for all their support.
LOVE YOU ALL BABES!!!!!
cake #4 thank you for the surprise!!! :)
haha shall post this up although Faith and i look like blobs cuz the rest look so prettyyyyyyyyyy.
comfort over style, man. thanks Felly!
hokay i will continue tmrw so tired. tonight was crazy too. xoxo | | comments: Leave a comment |
| spent quite a while browsing at Kino just now and there're so many books that i wanna read!!! :( but as much as i want to, i can't just start reading again cuz once i start a reading craze i'll just go on and on and never stop. i really want this book don't cry by i-forgot-the-author's-name. it has a pretty pink cover and it looks like a really nice read. okay don't judge but i really like books with pretty covers. i think most people secretly do.
anyway i've really been shopping too much. even in the midst of prelims i went shopping thrice. or maybe even more. whatevs can't remember. but i gotta stop man!!! especially when i'm moving again, how am i gonna find more space for my stuff!!! :( and i just did a stock-check. i currently have 11 hairbands and each time i see a pretty hairband i just gotta buy it! woe betide me why did Ion have to open.....
okay gonna watch the Michael Jackson Tapes now! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| you know what? sometimes i feel that i don't really want what i supposedly want. maybe there isn't really much point to spend so much time on my supposed dream when i actually don't really want to live that "dream". i'm really confused now. i just feel that there's a lot more to life than what i've been thinking about. and at the end of the day, i really just want to spend all my time with my loved ones. i don't want to be bogged down by all the stresses of college life, i don't want to feel suffocated because of that crazy amount of responsibility i would have. i really don't know... at times like these, i just want to become a little girl again and cuddle up in between daddy and mummy. it is the safest place in my world.
and tomorrow... happy birthday. i hope you are happy now. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| The Time Traveller's Wife was soooo amazing!! i can't believe that it got such sucky reviews. other than the fact that they left out the most touching ending, everything else was so beautifully imperfect. sigh can you imagine all the waiting that Clare had to go through? living through life with the sole purpose of seeing Henry again and fearing that he might just disappear as each moment passes...
bought Bambi earrings today! :) Zara's current season is so gorgeous!! and tmrw i will go shopping with my mom.
okay why am i making it look like Prelims is already over when it has only JUST STARTED?! sigh but all that crying that i did during the movie made my eyes so puffy that i really just wanna sleep now. :(
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| | Time: | 08:32 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/nolegs/sad.gif) sad |
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| Bella,
I really, really miss you tonight. there hasn't been a day since your passing that i didn't stop to think about you. but today... i really want to hug you right now. i just really miss your presence, just you being here is always enough to make me smile.
appear in my dreams tonight? | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 11:18 pm | | Current Mood: | calm |
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| | i saw how a human being morph into a beast today. and i truly only have one sentence for you to end it all: i always knew you were ugly on the outside, but now you've become just as ugly on the inside. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| haha let me tell you something really funny about my mom. cuz i just bought the Michael Jackson All Time Greatest Hits album (a really good buy btw), so i was listening to it and then my mom turned to me and asked "he sang that song right.... what's that song again? oh yes Jelly Bean! that is such a good song, play it play it." and then i was just like.............. i didn't know that such a song existed?!?! and then it dawned upon me that she was actually referring to Billie Jean! hahaha yeah i know -.-" guess it runs in the family to not remember song titles well. hahaha. oh and today, my mom went to see the fengshui master for some advice. and she happily decided to ask about our doggies as well. haha so she told the master Kobe and Lukkie's birthdates, names and stuff and asked him about their health and character. hahaha when she told me i was like, whaaaat did you seriously do that? didn't the master like laugh at you or something? haha but anyway the master is seriously damn good at his readings! he said that Lukkie behaves exactly like a king at home, almost like a tyrant and that everybody loves him so so so much that we always end up giving in to him. haha that is seriously so damn true. but he says that Lukkie will have stomach trouble, so we gotta take care of his diet... and he said that Kobe is an extremely intelligent dog (so so so true) but we will constantly worry about his weak health. :( i hope what he says about their health isn't true...
anyway i am feeling so dizzy now so it's an excuse to slack off for a bit. my results so far are, in the least, dismal. i am only one step closer to collecting all grades possible-A B C E, just short of a D. oh well... the stress is piling on.
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| just got back from a fantastic night of hanging out by the beach, mahjong, drinking, good food and nice new people :) and yeah, i feel guilty for bumming around since everybody keep going like 7 WEEKS LEFT, CHOOSE BETWEEN ONE YEAR AND 7 WEEKS, REGRET FOR LIFE!!!!! etc etc i am going crazy......
i need to go on a holiday. :( :( :(
Harry Potter was nice but SCARY. i should have known to be more prepared when i saw the advisory guidelines that were "Some frightening scenes". the part when Dumbledore was drinking the weird water in the cave was so beyond frightening.
and i just wanna say that i've had enough of people who are so daft, dense and mindless that they fail to reciprocate kind actions. backstabbing, sneaking around behind my back is a definite no-no.
oh yeah i really cleared out my WARdrobe this week and i'm so proud of myself! :) got rid of around 40+ pieces of clothing. now my clothes can finally breathe. haha another excuse to go shopping again.
okay i really have disconnected thoughts nowadays. must be due to my failing brain. bodycon dresses <333333 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| sigh just returned to reality from an extended weekend of shopping. life is too good when shopping comes into the picture :) haha plus who can say no to Topshop's fabulous season? very pleased with my purchases and what A.Ho says about happiness not being derived from material goods is rubbish. a certain (but small) amount of our happiness definitely depends on the amount of goods we buy. or else why would we bother to slog our asses off to buy beautiful bags if they didn't make us happy? but anyway, i really MUST find some motivation to clear my cupboard now. even though i've been making full use of the space by hanging more than one item on each hanger, i can no longer flip through my clothes to find them anymore!!! it is really getting annoying but i am so reluctant to throw my clothes away. it's like i'll always find some excuse to keep some crappy piece of cloth, i.e. might wear to Halloween party/might wear when taking bath for dogs/might wear to safari????
on a sadder note, i went to see the neurologist last week cuz of the constant vertigo/dizzy spells that i've been experiencing. and Doc says it's probably due to the onset of migraine or when i knocked my head against the cabinet 2 weeks ago which dislodged some particles from the fluid-filled canal of my left inner ear. oh well, whatever it is, it doesn't feel good and if it doesn't get better, i have to go for therapy to learn how to LIVE WITH IT, which is not a good option at all.. :(
need to get my motivation BACK.
xo | | comments: Leave a comment |
| please go take a look at the MV for Michael Jackson's Earth Song if you haven't. i was watching MTV yesterday and i can't believe i didn't know about the existence of this song until last night!!! it is the most powerful song i have ever listened to. i think i already replayed it 7 times this morning. IT IS TOO GOOD.
and yay Federer :) thank god for the win, it justified my staying up until 2am last night. (ok fine, i was watching Run's House at the same time too. it is such a funny show!!! please watch it on mtv.com Rev Run is seriously too funny)
peace. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Blocks are almost over but i know i'm too screwed for redemption this time... oh well, at least i have Prelims to work hard(er) for.
anyway, the only source of excitement in my life nowadays:
Meet Kobe (yeah, you guessed it, named after Kobe Bryant), my new 3-month-old Bernese Mountain Dog. he is probably the smartest puppy i have ever come across. sometimes, he's so smart that i suspect he's a human trapped in a dog's body. anyway, yeah, both Kobe and Lukkie have been bringing me much joy (and distraction) these few days, but Kobe is not my way of replacement for Bella. Bella can never be truly replaced in my heart, ever. it's just that Lukkie's been feeling sad and lonely from the lack of competition after Bella's passing that we decided to get him a companion. it's quite ironic though, cuz Kobe's gonna grow to be about 60kg while Lukkie remains as 2kg. i don't really see how this companion thing is gonna work out... :/
so many significant things have happened during the holidays that i'm rethinking my priorities right now. and what would truly make me happy. it's a complex thought process but i'm managing...
but what i've really learnt about Bella's passing was the infinite amount of love i can give to dogs and animals in general. and what i wanna say to all dog-owners out there: please shower them with as much love and affection that you can give. because they might only make up a part of your world. but to them, you are their entire world.
 
and R.I.P., MJ | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| 1997 - 13th June 2009
On Saturday, my best friend of 12 years took her last breath and went into a long, deep sleep. And it still seems so surreal to me. It happened too suddenly and it was too unexpected. Bella, remember when we promised each other to be there for one another all the time? Well, this time you really broke your promise. I am falling apart now and I really need you right now. It's been two days and I still hear you climbing the stairs, breathing, having nightmares when you sleep. I still hear you Bella, and if you really can't come back to me anymore, please continue to let me hear you. Because I really miss you to death.
Bella didn't give me any warning signals at all. Up to her last day, she was still being the ever-sensible dog that she has always been. It was never in her character to disobey or bother anyone. And she didn't up to the very last moment. The vet said that she chose to control and suppress all her symptoms of breaking down up to the last day, and it just deteriorated so quickly on Saturday. On suffering her first seizure, Bella had many other multiple seizures and breathing difficulties, and she fought hard for a short 3 hours and went to sleep forever. Thank you for knowing that I would hate to make the decision on whether to put you to sleep or not. I am comforted at the fact that you passed away relatively without much pain. But you were such a great dog with so much good karma that it was the only dignified way that God would have chose to let you go. Thank you for being so sensible to control your pain, Bella. But I wish you had chosen to be inconsiderate for once and just let me worry about you, so that I knew when your time was coming. I still have so many things I wish to say to you, Bella. Like how you are the sweetest girl ever, and about how much I love you. So many things left unsaid and undone. I would do anything to have you back with me right now, baby.
I will always remember how you like to place your head on my lap during car-rides, your beautiful watery eyes, your love for cheese and apples, your little prance-up-and-turn-around trick, your loyalty to the family and the way you spin in circles when you are happy. Thank you Bella, for giving me the chance to accompany you these 12 years of your life. Thank you to fate for allowing me to meet you. Thank you for giving me so many warm and unforgettable memories of the times we spent together. You have given us so much more than we have given you. All the untaught lessons about selflessness, humility, tolerance, patience and love were derived from spending time with you dear.
All of us miss you so much. It is so weird to look under the table and not see you there anymore. I miss carrying you up and down the stairs as you got older, hearing you whining when you want to eat apples, having you sit beside me on the chair. Daddy, Mummy and I cannot believe that you are gone. Today, Mummy unconsciously called your name when she was giving Lukkie his lunch. But you didn't respond. Lukkie misses you dearly too, although the two of you were always quarreling when you were around. He walks around listlessly and never fails to sit on the steps, waiting for you to come back. Did you feel him kissing you at the last moment? Did you hear us calling out for you to come back and not sleep anymore when the vet was performing CPR on you? Why didn't you wake up then, Bella? It's so selfish of you to leave me all alone now without even allowing me to say a final goodbye.
I remember how you always thought that you were human, and you just refused to socialise with other animals. You are really human in my eyes, Bella. Your intelligence and diverse feelings really made you seem so human-like. Now you are free to be reborn as a human being, darling. You have definitely had enough good karma in your lifetime for you to do so. Even the monk and nun who saw you knew you were a great dog and they blessed you to become a human being in your next life. Please remember me so that our paths will cross again and I would be able to enjoy your company once more.
I always thought about what would happen when Bella passed away as the years went by and she got older. But never did I think that it would feel this horrible. There is no single moment that Bella is not in my mind. And I really feel that I'm crumbling apart from the inside. My heart just clenches up and constricts when I feel so pained that you are gone, and I would struggle to find my next breath. It really, truly hurts with every heartbeat.
Bella's cremation and memorial is in two or three days time. I will definitely find all your favourite things and place them together with you in your niche, just so that you feel safe in familiar surroundings. Bella, the only request I have of you now would be for you to appear in my dreams every night. So that I can escape with you to your new home and talk to you again. At least it would be a motivation to keep me going on, so that when night comes, I know that I will feel safe with you around. And in the day, I'm going to keep you safe in my heart.
I hope you are in a better place right now, sweetie. Everytime I look into the sky, I will see you. Till we reunite again in death. I love you, Princess. Sleep tight.
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